Choosing

Long time ago I've faced difficulties to choose person I fell in love and the people I always love. Here the scenarios; I like this person so much and I can tell he's the 1st guy I fell in love, I don't realize when and how but time tell. As much time i drowned in love, he's mostly unlikeable by people i always loved due to some gossips spread around.

I've heard about it too but it's me, I give space for people to change and I believe people would change,ryt? Seriously I cant help myself, i rather hurt myself than hurting them. I don't have anybody to turn to. I can't turn to the BF since it's about him, I don't want any dramatic movie relation. I can't turn to my sisters as they are 'people I always loved'.

So yeah, My mind never been at home altho my body was always there. I don't even thought about him altho we're seldom hang around together. As time travel I never made any decision but just go with the flow. I don't choose between two cause I might ended up regretting it. Until now, I guess i don't regret anything since I don't lose anything :)

I don't regret had him in my life once upon a time as i learn sooner or later LOVE will disappear...Leaving us...dumping us...forgetting us...or DIE!!! Worst case LOVE just not there anymore...it fade~

BUT

I'll regret if i leave my family because of 1 man cause the LOVE flowing from the family never stop till the last breath...it always in memory...it's cant be exchange with anything....


p/s: If u hesitate who to believe, ur mom or ur partner..ask mom again if she ever hesitate gave u birth?

I'm not giving an idea to leave your partner but help to makes thing clear... I hate the feeling of being in the middle as much I hate losing the people i always loved

We just can't hate each other so much as we're the only person we turn too when we're on UPS & DOWNS